It has been just over 1 year I sought the governments assistance in helping me move, due to issues at home and also decades running online businesses and the issues that have occurred. My first move out my parents was worsened being in the balkans vs my fellow country people at a time when everyone is in group celebration.
1 year on, there is no housing, a lot of games by people and endangering my businesses and livelihood, something that has happened many times even at my parents house, one occassion even attempts against me. It is upsetting to see that in my years, I have been forced back not moving forward. Leaving home, partly bouncing as I usually am, I was made to feel old and not the lively person that I am.
One year on, the government has assisted in some sort of movement away from my parents and a balancing of life but this has been temporary, sporadic, and largely carelessly in consideration of my experience.
It is agees known. 1000’s of years of knowledge, that forced labor, and only labor with no correct rest or leisure, social interaction was a way to make life only live for 30 – 40 years.
To consider born in england, that I have had to remain at an office (my bedroom) night and day and day and night but mostly night and day with no social interaction of my own, leading to life for weeks, months.
I sought the governments help but one year on, I have seen more interested that I be harmed in this, and not a solution.
I believe there is a technological danger in this mode of work + social being put behind a screen, not human to human. How many people can sit in front of a book from morning to night or looking at a wall.
I neither know whether to cancel the agreement or to continue. For me, it has tired me a bit, replenished me a bit, but has not provided any sort of housing that the length of time of 1 year is porported to have done. This is upsetting and in a year that should in any respectable society have left many years of fond memories. In light of the internet showing its impoverisher status, not maker, at least not for long periods of time which I believe is effecting many.
I can’t work at my parents as it doesn’t lead to life and governments so called housing being not housing and still in a place of problems is further a detriment to where I for decades have got up ready to handle running this organization, only to find saboteurs and effects to my abilities ongoing which are showing signs of delay and decay today.
We have done tests, and performance in a place where harm has previously been done, verses away, showed not only life, but better performance, but it was all temporary living, one that tires, and delays actual starting of life. For someone who is technological based, the states staff is showing an equivelent of putting an even bigger gap to being able to build this organization, buy a house, get girlfriends and have a life.
Instead I deteriorate at parents without adequate housing. It hurts and there is no solution.
I may have to cancel, even though I need assistance, but in a place of no assistance being provided but only being given money, and blocked, stopped, hindered, I wonder how many have a government killing its populations in a ficticious housing scheme of not providing housing.
I know some may take the opportunity and improve, but in a place that has harmed and no performance can be found, and in my what was a fully devoted directive, to be looking like the confused homeless, means the state in multiple instances, even with internet is showing signs of leaving me poor, despondant, and a life that is wrecked with total poverty and only moments of friendship or love. Unfortunate, but with these circumstances I don’t believe there is any experience of normality of life in this, happy life.
Lord Kozan
This text is considered a mortification. I.e. a text that should not exist on a planet with real living beings. Not on our path, either as a living being or in our business aims.